I’m back…and I promise I am still alive. It’s hard to believe that it has been over a month since my last post. A lot has happened in this past month.. I have obtained a Master’s degree, I have spent nearly 2 weeks in Houston, I celebrated birthdays, I applied at numerous jobs, I hung out with friends, I spent time with family, I went on dates with my husband, I have sought out God’s will for my life…
Yes, I’ve done a lot of things this past month but blogging is not one of them. I was not at all planning on this leave of absence. If you look back at my last post you will see that I was fully anticipating writing a blog for the next week. But this is not what the Lord had planned for me. I honestly am quite surprised that He had me stop for the last month. Every week prior I had been fully invested, excited and ready for what He would speak through me. I could not wait to learn more about marriage as I wrote. But that is not what He had in store.
The Lord and I have been in quite the awkward growing phase this last month. Learning to trust Him in new ways has not always been pleasant, but He continually reminds me to “Be still and know” that He is God (Psalm 46:10). The verse continues on to say that He will be exalted among the nations, HE will be exalted in the earth, and this is what I have been slowly learning day by day. It’s about Him, not me. My thoughts are not His thoughts, my ways are not His ways (Isaiah 55:8). He’s in control, I need only to be still and know.
I share all this not to vomit my thoughts and feelings on you, and not only to explain why I have not been posting, but because He has shown me through this how good and patient He is. He is still teaching me to trust in Him. He is showing me that above all, I am His child, and my second priority is to be a good wife to Matt. Jobs will come and go, circumstances will come and go, lessons will come and go. But my God is forever, and my marriage is until death do we part. This has been such a hard but sobering reminder, that no matter what I want in life, my purpose in Him is fully worth-while and that is what I should continue rest in. My hope is that what He has been teaching me can be a good reminder to you, as well. God first, your spouse second, and the rest will work itself out.
It looks like I am back on for more marriage posts, and I will be back with some less-than-personal updates soon. Thank you for sticking with me. I’m excited for what He has in store!